Okay, I know Im not alone here. Have you ever had one of those days where you just dont enjoy being a mom? I hate even asking that. I love being a mom and most nights I go to bed asking myself how, of all the kids in the world, I got the three very best ones. But this day was different- I was so irritated with being the drink getter, potty trainer, chicken nugget and tater tot maker (hush!) that I told my kids I seriously needed some quiet time. I let the boys color in the office and I gave Bella her camera. I told her that she could walk around the house and take pictures of things that were special to her. Well, she brought the camera back to me about an hour later and I let everyone know that it was (finally) time for their nap. Once everyone was napping, I plugged the camera in to import the pics for her and I started crying. I dont even know why. Then I just started laughing! It was just so touching to look at pictures of what is special in Bella's 5 year old world. I thought I would post them- you might look at these and think I am so weird for getting so emotional over these pictures but really, how stinkin cute is it that she tried so hard to set up all of her Barbies perfectly in front of the castle? and that she took a picture of...a picture? a picture that is so special to her. and that she put her Bitty Baby and Kit doll in the Bitty Baby bed with little books?
There are alot more pictures (she actually filled up the memory card) but I just wanted to share a few of them. So of course, after I pulled myself together, I went to Bella's room to see if she had fallen asleep (of course not) and just held her, told her how much I loved the pictures and what a great job she did and that she could get up and hang out with me. I cant remember what we did after that- probably water colors or something small but even though it wasnt a big deal to me, Im sure it was very important in her world.
What I do remember is, when I was leaving her room that night after her goodnight kiss (and the sign language for "I love you", and about 20 thumb-kisses), I paused outside her door and felt that feeling of overwhelming love inside- just welling up. Im feeling that right now. I love being a mom and feel so thankful that God trusted me with the three best kids in all the world.
How sweet is it that her brothers made it in the pictures? It threw me off to see pictures of Bella cutting her cake and posing-but as it turns out, she figured out how to hold the button down so the timer would work (by herself!)
5 comments:
This is the best blog ever. You almost made ME cry! How sweet, and amazing that you get the chance to be touched this way. Everyone needs a little girl like Bella. I can't wait to get these moments with Clara. Thanks for reminding me about the important things, and stopping and seeing the world through their eyes. Love you all!
Bella's pictures were so precious, and it's amazing to me how children see the world. Sometimes I feel such overwhelming love for Jack and such intense vulnerability when it comes to him, and I wonder if other mothers feel this way. Obviously! Thanks for sharing that!
This was so touching and just wonderful to read. Children are really a blessing from Heaven. Enjoy every moment and don't be too hard on yourself when you need a moment alone. If you think that brought tears to your eye wait until Bella has children and you read her blog. Oh...the love !
Vicki, thank you for sharing your daughter's blog with me. It makes me miss my boys being small..:-( but also reminds me to enjoy the moments and special times at 13 and 17, too. Wish we had the digital cameras when they were little! Holly, this is a really neat thing to do with your daughter...:-)
This is so cute. I let my daughter do that too. She always takes the best pictures. Thanks for making me remember that I need to stop and spend time with my kids and enjoy those little things. Now that our stress is dying down a little I am really starting to remember what makes me happy. Being a stay at home mom!
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